Thursday, January 29, 2015

clarity and self improvement

so many things going on.  so much i want to say, need to say, but not being able to sleep is one of my many issues.


i just came back from a weekend retreat in arizona.  much needed me time, alone time, girl time.  laughing and drinking and sleeping and drinking my coffee hot time.  my heart is full and i feel a sense of renewal.  i came home with a clearer mind.  i need to be better and do better.  i will find a way to dig out from the rut i'm stuck in, find some continued clarity.  i will find a way to reduce the clutter and chaos that brings me so much stress.  i will find a way to parent better and a way to be a better collaborator with ben.  i will find a way to be healthier, make healthier food choices, get ben on board with being more aware as well.

he is working midnights now - 10:30pm to 6:30am.  i have a hard time falling asleep.  by the end of his work week, i am so ready for a break.  i need to work on breathing and not yelling, not reacting so harshly when i get frustrated.  i need to find a way to lower my anxiety level and reduce my chronic mommy guilt.  i am taking a tai chi class to do something for myself and have a scheduled time to clear my head.  i want to find a chiropractor who also does massage and acupuncture in hopes of finding some physical relief.  i have decided too that finally seeing a mental health professional for the first time in my adult life is something i need to do, to work on the anxiety and guilt and also just help me find ways to parent better and deal with my issues about my own childhood.

my children are my light.  i want to be better, i want to give them better than i had, and i know i can.  i am a work in progress.  i need to work on me, but i also need to bring ben on board.  our life is hard right now, and i need help figuring out how to deal with the physical and mental clutter.  we need to communicate better and reconnect so that we can be happier and be better parents.  we all deserve better than what we've got right now, which is really just hanging in there.... ben's schedule is what it is, til the end of the year, so we can't just "hang in there".  we need to be functional, but i can't do it alone.  here goes nothing...

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

#frostyvoxbox part one

we interrupt the usual blabber about my babies and my crazy life to bring you my #frostyvoxbox from Influenster!!!!  a few months back, a friend on facebook posted a referral link to this website, Influenster, where you can get free stuff to try and review on social media.  pretty rad concept, and i sure like free stuff, so he's a little bit about some of the goodies i got in the bright orange box.... 

(**"I received these products complimentary from Influenster for testing purposes.**)

from #Rimmel London, their gentle eyes makeup remover and scandaleyes waterproof eyeliner.  i am obsessed with both.  i sort made an unspoken new years resolution to wear more eyeliner after getting this stuff because it goes on so smooth and stays on so clean.  i might actually buy it in a few more colors.  like the shiny black, in addition to the regular black.... lame.  the makeup remover is fantastic.  not greasy or irritating to my eyes like that other crap i used to use, that has since gone in the trash...

from  New York Color Cosmetics, color last lip color in #SugarPlum.  also obsessed.  also not usually one to wear lipstick, but this color was made for me.  seriously, it's color without being too much or looking like i'm trying too hard.  i need to investigate other colors now that this foray into lipstick has been a success.

from Boots Beauty USA, Boots No. 7 Protect & Perfect ADVANCED... little trial packet of serum and coupons to buy more.  i've yet to buy more but i did like how this felt on my skin.  i am fortunate to have really good skin, not a lot of wrinkles or marks, but just as a moisturizer, i liked it.  my skin is pretty sensitive when i try to lotions and whatnot, but i didn't have any issues with the Boots and will most likely pick some up at the drugstore.  #GetADVANCED

From Fruit Vines, fruit vines bites (cherry).  YUM-O!!   similar to that other well known licorice that all used to make bites, but even better.  all i can say is that i opened the bag, and between ben & i, they were gone in about 30 minutes...  #sweetside

From Ecotools, sleek & shine hairbrush.  well, unfortunately, i have to be honest.  this is the one thing in the box they sent me that missed the mark.  there were two other hairbrushes that i could have received, and i honestly think only one of them (the styler & smoother) would have worked for me.  i just have so much, super thick hair.  i like the idea of the brush but this type of brush in general just gets tangled in my hair.  :/  can't win 'em all, i guess.

still to come... reviews of Celestial Seasonings peppermint tea (not a big tea fan, but i can probably get down with peppermint tea....) and McCormick brand Thyme (gotta find a good recipe that calls for thyme.... good thing tomorrow is meal planning/shopping day).

peace yo.