Sunday, June 29, 2008

Belly pics

The first photo was taken on February 19th. I was just 7 weeks pregnant and still on estrogen and progesterone, so I was pretty bloated from the drugs. I think I gained between 5 and 10 pounds from the drugs before I even started gaining baby weight.

This one was taken on June 10th, and I was 23 weeks. As you can see, I'm all baby now!

100 days!!!

*25 weeks, 5 days*

As of today, I have 100 days to go! How insane is that? The time has just been flying by, and I know that the next three months are going to seem like an eternity, but it's so awesome to already be this far.

Well, what's new? I'm sick. I have a sinus infection, and I seriously think it's stress inducted. Work has been making me crazy in more ways that one. I think I'm okay in terms of my caseload and actual meetings and whatnot, but upper management and the thoughtlessness of the agency are really starting to wear on me. It's quite hard to explain, unless you work with me (which I know many of my readers do), but the long and short of it is, morale sucks right now. Part of it is turn-over - we're trying to hire three people immediately, and another one for the end of the summer. The rest of it, I probably shouldn't go into, but it's stressful enough for me, being pregnant and trying to plan to be gone for three and a half months, and then to have to worry about training a ton of new people, as well as trying to keep the troops happy...

Part of my own "stress" is the thought of having to go back to work after maternity leave. It's so hard to explain how I feel, but I've always wanted to be able to be a stay-at-home-mom, at least for the first few years. I think it's weighing on me more and more as my due date approaches, because the idea of having a baby in my arms is almost a reality, and after trying so hard, for so long, all I can think about is spending every waking moment with him. I'm sure lots of women who have to go back to work after baby feel this way, and I don't want to discount their feelings, but I guess I just feel like my desire is exacerbated by the fact that I wished for this little miracle SO hard, it tears me apart to think about not being with him.

How do I resolve this? I have no idea. I'm looking for options, so any suggestions are welcome. The beauty of my current job is that I have more flexibility than anyone I know. I could work from home one day a week, I can change my hours on a daily basis, I can call in last minute and not be questioned about it. But I still have to manage to pull 40 hours a week, carry a 3/4 caseload of 45 kids, and be available to train and support staff on a regular basis. I can't do my job at part-time, for one - there's no way they would let me, and for two - I wouldn't make enough to pay our bills, so that's not an option. I guess I'll just keep wishing for another miracle!!

What else is new? Little man (I call him Monkey) moves ALL THE TIME! Daddy hasn't felt him move yet, but I'm hoping he will soon. He kick low and hard, and he's super active around 9pm when I'm relaxing on the couch with my feet up.

I think he's a pretty laid back kid. I can't really explain it. I guess it's just a gut feeling, but he just seems so chill and content to me. Maybe it's because my pregnancy has been so easy, I don't know. I just hope I'm right!

Last thing, I want to thank Sissy for the AWESOME shower invites! I love them! As this blog is for Baby K and I've been documenting everything else so far, here's what the invite looks like:

I especially loved the baby photo inserts of Ben and I. The photos have info about our registries and blog on the back. I heard that the photos were Sarah's idea, so thanks for the awesome idea, Sarah - I love it! And finally, thanks to Scott for laboriously creating the inserts last Saturday while Julie & I played all day!

Look at those fat little fingers! I love it!

I swear I didn't have a unibrow, but yes, my hair was bad...

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Another fun aspect of pregnancy...

*23 weeks, 1 day*

Heartburn! It's been confirmed. I had my second experience with the big H-B today, and it was rough. Apparently, I had it last week too (again on Wednesday morning, nonetheless), but wasn't sure what it was. This morning I was at a training and felt wretched. I had very little nausea early in my pregnancy and nothing that I would have considered "morning sickness", but how I felt this morning made me want to puke. I asked one of the other girls who was at the training (who has a three year old) if what I was feeling was heartburn, and she said it was. Ack. If I have to deal with this for the next four months, I seriously might die. (I know, a little mellow dramatic, but it's PAINFUL!) I took a Tums and it helped a bit, but ultimately I'm not sure it did the trick. Anyways, just a vent. I hope this doesn't become a habit...

Sunday, June 8, 2008

We registered!!

*22 weeks, 5 days*

After having started baby registries online, we finally took a day to go to Babies R Us (BRU) and Target and get a few more things from the store. I don't think we're *quite* done - there's still a few little things to get and a few things to decide on. (For example, do we want to go with the Diaper Genie or the Diaper Dekor?)

Besides BRU and Target, we are also registered at Land of Nod for our bedding (and a few miscellaneous other items). I think the bedding will work PERFECTLY in the green nursery. Here's a pic:

We are registered at Pottery Barn Kids for the nursery furniture. It's a little pricey, but I definitely believe you get what you pay for, and it will hopefully last us a long time.

On another note, Baby K went to his first concert on Friday night. We were 7th row, center at the Dave Matthews Band concert at Toyota Park in Bridgeview, and it was a a great show! The baby didn't move much during the show - I think he was a little freaked out by all the noise! At the end of the show, I looked down and realized my feet were MONSTEROUS!! It was my first experience with swollen feet, and it made me gag a little bit. Who knew my feet could get so big?!

On Saturday (yesterday), I spent three or so hours cleaning out my bedroom closet and trying to organize the bedroom a bit. Again, after a few hours I realized my feet were enormous... I guess this is just the beginning!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Barack Obama

*22 weeks, 2 days*

Tuesday was a big day. Not only did it mark my being 22 weeks pregnant, but it was also the day Barack Obama clinched the democratic nomination for president. It's no secret how much I adore this man or that I've supported him wholeheartedly from day one. But on Tuesday, I was quite emotional about it, and maybe it was the hormones, but it was truly a historic day that I will never forget.

As Ben & I sat watching his speech, I kept rubbing my belly and thinking about what it might mean for my son's future if Barack is to become president. Everyone says they want a better world for their children, and I guess it was sort of an epiphany moment for me.

I want a better world for my child, and I think Barack Obama can give me that.

I became emotional as he spoke and my little boy moved inside of me. I told the baby - "Today is an important day, and when it comes time to vote for president, it will be a very special day because you and mommy are going to go vote for Barack Obama together."

My son will BE HERE by election day, which in and of itself is crazy, but it will mean so much to me to take him with to cast my ballot. It will be something he will never remember, but I will let him know that he was there and he was a part of something amazing.

I am over the moon that Barack is our candidate, and I am beside myself in awe that a black man will be president. It gives me hope for this country, which is not something you will hear me say often. He gives me hope, and I am so excited to see what the next five months have in store!

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Ultrasound Pictures and more!!

*21 weeks, 5 days*

So as you all know, we finally had our *big* ultrasound last Saturday! We finally got the scanner hooked up again, so it's picture time!! (Click on pictures to enlarge.)

His head is on the left, and his hands are in front of his mouth. It looks like he may be sucking his thumb! Already self-soothing in-utero... excellent!

The money shot!! That's his butt on the left, with both legs sticking out. The arrow points as his quite obvious boy parts! There's no doubt in our minds that he's a boy!

His legs are on the left, and his arms and head are on the right. It looks like he's looking at the camera. He's already hamming it up for the camera!!

Ever since the ultrasound last Saturday, our little man has been moving like crazy! Woohoo! Finally. I kept thinking I was feeling thinkgs, and now I know for sure he's moving. I don't know if maybe the noise of the ultrasound waves have him a wake up call or what, but it all started Saturday night. It's continued just about every night since, and even on Friday during the day! It's so awesome!

Last weekend's painting project is complete! The office/spare room looks freaking awesome! Ben did a great job. It's a blue gray color, and all the trim looks fresh and clean. We bought a new computer desk, which Ben set up on Friday night, and hopefully tonight or tomorrow we'll finish loading in the room so we can start getting the nursery ready! I'll post a picture of the room when I get a chance.